26 February 2013 - A New Life

               I almost know it for sure that there is a tiny little life in me. There are several obvious symptoms to say that and I vomited this morning. Have been feeling uncomfortable since last few days. Even your dad has a doubt about your existence. Somewhere I am terrified about the thought of having another baby so soon when your sister is so small. She already seems very capable of hurting you. She is giving me too many sleepless nights and if you join her after 8 or 9 months, I will totally have to forget what sleep is and what rest is!

              But deep inside, when I think of seeing another cutie pie soon, how can I be not happy? I am not just happy by the thought, I already feel complete with the thought of your arrival! I can't believe it myself that I am looking forward for the confirmation by my doctor. I want to choose a different doctor this time, because you are a different person, I don't want it to be the same experience. My doctor is not bad, I liked her a lot, but for a new person, I want everything new. I am going through the doctors' list and pregnancy websites. 

               Though I might be pregnant once again so soon, it does not feel monotonous, everything feels fresh and new. I love this feeling.