25 March 2012 - Sick and Surprise

               I think I am going to remember this day for a little longer time, or may be even for the rest of my life! There was a pleasant surprise (hope it is a real one) as well as a bad time. 

               Let me start with the bad one. I had a normal day and for dinner I had prepared ridge gourd chutney along with sambar. Somehow the chutney had become very spicy and I had eaten some because I didn't want it to go wasted. After dinner my stomach started burning a little and I drank a lot of water to cool it down and even milk. Then I thought I will sleep it off and once I fall asleep, I won't feel the pain. But unfortunately I slept only for an hour. I woke up all of a sudden at 1 a.m with terrible heart burn and I had to immediately rush to the bathroom and puke. Even after that, my stomach was burning a lot and neither water nor milk helped me. I couldn't stand, couldn't sit nor could I sleep. I looked at my husband, he was happily snoring! I tickled him to stop it, but it stopped only for a few seconds and continued in a different style! There was no point in waking him up, because even he can't do anything to stop my pain, so I let him continue snoring. But all of a sudden he woke up to my surprise and started asking what happened to me. 6th sense I say when it comes to his child inside feeling uncomfortable!

               Now let me come to the surprise which I am hoping to be the real one. Just as I was lying down, I felt as though something moved in my tummy. It felt like few bubbles suddenly hitting my stomach from inside, it wasn't painful but that was surely something I had never felt before. The next day when I browsed, not even one site told me that there are chances of me feeling the baby so soon if it is the first pregnancy! In the later pregnancies, mothers might feel the baby very soon because they know exactly how it feels. I was disappointed with that information, but I am still hoping that it was my baby inside. I am going to wait for some more time until I feel the movements and going to compare the feelings. If it is the same like last night, I am going to conclude that I felt my baby on 25 March 2012! :)

17 March 2012 - Baby bump!

               I was wrong on the 11th of March when I thought that is going to be the last time I puked. Till this afternoon I believed so, but after eating a banana, I was proved wrong! So now hoping that this is the last time!

               I am a member of baby center now, I get in touch with all those who are going to be moms in September (some of them for the second or third time)! It's nice to share each others' ultrasound pictures and compare. They all even share the pictures of their pregnancy bump. But I am restricted from doing that (My mom doesn't let me upload pictures)! All are mentioning these days that their morning sickness has reduced. So even I am hoping to come out of it soon. Baby center said, now you are almost 4 inches long from head to toe! I am waiting for you to grow soon. And I am tired of waiting to feel you inside. But I know I need to wait another one and a half month! 

               I have become a member of another such website, which tells me your growth everyday. So the first thing I do in the morning these days (as soon as your dad goes to office) is checking what you are doing today. Yesterday your hair follicles were developing. Today you are inhaling and exhaling the amniotic fluid, so you have already started practicing to breathe. Everyday it is fun now to see what you are up to.  

11 March 2012 - Feeling little better

               Finally I am hoping for something good for me. Yes, there are chances of I stop vomiting. Yesterday the whole day went without nausea. Yaayy!!! But today I vomited after breakfast and I really hope this is the last time! 

               I have been singing a lot for you of late. Though the singing is terrible, at least you will get used to your mom's voice! I make even your dad talk to you. He must be finding me weird for the same reason. Poor him! :)

               I treated you today with ice cream, chocolate and chips after a long time and I think you liked it, because I did! :) Every time I see a cute little frock in a shop, I hope you are a baby girl and every time I see a tiny t-shirt with wordings "I am not chubby, it's all muscle!" I smile and hope you are a baby boy. If you are a boy, I want to play with my naughty son. If you are a girl, I want to squeeze my doll like daughter. Really can't wait almost 6 more months to see your first cry! On my next appointment on April 2nd, I will know if you are my handsome hero or sweet angel!

5 March 2012 - Saw your Kicks!!!

               You are now 12 and a half weeks old and you have given us a lot of excitement today. When we saw you and your little tiny 5.5 cm long body, you were kicking and swimming backwards in the amniotic fluid you are floating in. You were boxing the fluid with your tiny cute hands and I never expected to see you this active so soon. Your nose looked sharp! How cute are you! Heard your super fast heart beat, that was normal too! Can you even imagine how many times have I seen your printout picture after returning home? Patting my tummy imagining that it's you! I can't stop looking at you!

               Doctor has given me tablets to prevent vomiting and I must take it before meal only if I think I am going to puke. But that is little too difficult to assume. Sometimes I don't feel any nausea, so I don't take the tablet and waste all the food that I ate with great difficulty. Can't take the tablet before every meal because it has its own side effects. I feel sad when I eat 3 dosas with so much trouble and after the last bite, everything comes out without leaving even a bit for you! As far as you are getting enough nutrition, I am fine. My giddiness is still with me. Can't stand for long in the kitchen. After cooking every dosa, I need to sit. 

               And how did I even forget to mention the terrible heart burn so far!? Yes, it makes me wake up in the midnight and sit up straight crying. My complaints of pregnancy don't stop there. I never used to wake up in the night to go to bathroom unless I ate watermelon just before going to bed. In that case, now if I wake only once, I consider myself lucky that day!

27 February 2012 - Feeling Sick

               I have started praying hard for you to grow soon, because you are making my life little too miserable these days! Making me puke 3 times a day - not just in the mornings. I vomit while brushing my teeth, have breakfast suppressing nausea, puke after lunch and after dinner! Do you think this is easy to take? I can't bear the smell of rice, yet I have to eat it for carbohydrate! Can't stand the smell of Sambar! Can't eat any of the regular food items - including chocolates! Can you believe it? Can you believe it when I say I puke even ice cream? Anyway, your mom is in a bad mood after vomiting ice cream now. I am a little too moody these days and that makes your dad's life miserable!

               But we both still love you and I have started listening to songs whether you hear it or not. 

13 February 2012 - Heart is Beating

               I am very happy today to know that you are growing well, though you have made me lose one pound of weight. Your dad and I saw the little "you" today and saw your heart beating. I was a little shocked to see that your head is not inside your body, but then doctor said that you are normal. Though you are in a weird shape with a big head and a little tail, you are still too cute for our eyes! We love you.

               My body is still trying to adjust with your existence in my womb. I have been suffering with morning sickness quite a lot now, or rather I would call it "whole day sickness"! 

               I think you have got this from your dad - the fact that you make me puke every time I eat ghee, isn't it? I am sure, your dad is going to be proud of you!

               Your heart has started beating and it is quite too fast - 160 times every minute! And you make me faint these days a little often and your mom feels tired all the time. I hope you are growing well. 

31 January 2012 - Good news

               I got to know for sure today that there is another new life in me! That is exciting! Last few days' doubt of your existence is cleared now. I am hoping and praying that you are growing well. I have started eating little more nutritious food now for you and not drinking coffee for another year from now. Started taking vitamin tablets for your growth. But my body is not yet accepting you, making me nauseated and making me hate eating!

               I sit at home without doing anything and yet feel so tired and giddy because my body is working so hard to grow you!

Your doctor is Dr. Kristie Moss, at Northwest Women Center, Houston, Texas, USA.

31 December 2011 - Not aware

I still don't know that you exist.

We have gone on a small trip to Sea world. And I have sat on all the rides today including roller coaster and many more. Many of these rides made me get thrown upside down!

Now don't be angry, I already told you, I didn't know that you exist in my womb!!!