21 April 2012

Noticed colostrum. So I am happy to know that your food is ready, you just have to arrive!

18 April 2012 - More kicks and play

               12 days are over since I felt the real kick from you. Though I was worried in the beginning, now it is the fun time! I had felt you on Saturday and the next entire day I waited for you to kick me and you didn't. You kicked me again on Monday, and didn't kick for the next 2 days! I waited every minute on those few days to feel your movements and at the end of the day I was on verge of crying because you didn't kick me! Your dad even made fun of me saying he is willing to kick me if I need it that bad!! 

               But you are a sweet heart, because there after you haven't missed even a day without kicking me! I have noticed that you kick me when I am hungry, and I get to know then that my poor baby is also hungry inside. Sometimes when you kick, I keep my hand on my tummy and you kick even more. I can't understand if you are responding with love to my touch or getting irritated with the heavy burden of my hand! But I enjoy it anyway, because it makes me realize that you are really existing! All these while, I of course knew that I am pregnant and there is a life in me. But that had not got into my head so clearly and now I proudly feel that I am a mommy! After all, there you are reminding this fact to me quite often. 

               I can now clearly differentiate your kicks as well. Some of your kicks are genuine - like when you turn and change your sleeping position or when you are hungry or irritated! But there are times I know for sure, you kick me for time pass! They are like rhythmic kicks several times! You are just so jobless there, aren't you? You play there with my tummy, thinking that it is a wall and your mom definitely does realize it. Since you are quite naughty, sometimes when I get sudden pain in my womb, I wonder if you are biting me!!! I saw some of the "inside womb" videos online and saw the babies playing with the umbilical chord - holding it, shaking it and putting it in their mouth! You must be doing the same too! I am eagerly waiting to see you do all that on the 30th of this month, and you better be awake. If you are not, I am going to shake my tummy to wake you up! :)

15 April 2012 - Last puke

               Since the topic is disgusting to some extent, I am writing it in short. I puked today while brushing my teeth and I hope it to be the last time!! :)

7 April 2012 - First Real Kick

               Time has come to say "hurrey"!!! I woke up today with a huge smile on my face and the credit goes to you!!! Yes, I felt you move inside. It is Saturday and since it is a holiday, I woke up and was just lazily lying down on the bed this morning. It was when I stretched my legs on bed yawning and staring at the ceiling, I felt something in my tummy. I gave more attention to it and it was you!!! It was not something that usually happens in my tummy - not a hunger growl. I don't know if you were kicking me or turning in the little space you live in. But you actually did it this time! Made your mommy feel your existence. So two weeks ago what I had felt was an imaginary kick for sure. Now it was such a light movement. Hardly I could notice. But was a different one. It was like a butterfly fluttering around and it happened several times and slowly you calmed down and you made my day! 

2 April 2012 - Still didn't get to know the gender

               I had a lot of expectations for today - because I had my doctor's appointment and was hoping that I would get to know the gender of my baby. But I happened to be little disappointed because I didn't have any ultrasound prescribed for today. 

               I can say that it was a scary day as well. When the nurse came in smiling and told me that she is going to test the heart beat of the baby, both my husband and I sat in pin drop silence to listen to it. She moved that little electric machine all over the tummy and as the seconds passed, her smile faded away too. She was growing impatient and later she said, she will be right back and disappeared. In a minute, another nurse came in smiling and with a different machine. She tested it this time and I could see her worried face. She kept asking me questions like, "How many weeks now?", "When did you come for your last test?" Finally I couldn't keep quiet anymore and I asked her if something was wrong. She remembered her forgotten smile and said, nothing to worry and it is possible that baby is small, because the mother looks small too. But somehow I couldn't smile back at her. She told my husband that we can test the heart beat via ultrasound. They took me there and I was so relieved when I heard the super-fast heart beat and I knew for sure that it wasn't mine. Even my husband was smiling now. Test said that the heart beat of the baby is 148 per minute and that was normal. 

               It was later when doctor asked me if we got to know the gender, I realized about it and regretted for forgetting to check that. Doctor also said, the nurse would have told you that, if she could check the gender, it is possible that the baby was sleeping with its legs crossed hiding 'it'! But at the same time, we were happy that the baby is fine. 

               So today I thought I would know if you are my daughter or my son. Of course I was disappointed. But I was even more disappointed with you because you were fast asleep today! We had seen you just for a minute and couldn't you at least wave at your mom and dad? Last time when we saw you, you were dancing inside! You were kicking me so hard, I even wondered how in the world is it possible that I still don't feel you! I must be really thick skinned! But it was wonderful to see you so active. But what happened today? You were neither boxing nor cycling and you were busy sleeping! But anyway, happy that your heart is beating well, and you really looked even cuter this time. You didn't look skinny today. Compared to last time, you were chubbier. That makes your mom so happy and I wish I could touch your little cheeks and pat you! I love you! 

30 March 2012 - Miss my Waist

               I am four months' pregnant now. Or here in America, I would rather say 17 weeks pregnant. And I have already started calling the baby with a lot of nick names. Since I still don't know the gender, I call her/him as "baabe", "puttu", "oppakunhi", "muddu" and list has no end. It even includes meaningless blabbers which I am embarrassed to mention here! My husband is used to hearing all these by now, so he doesn't think I am mad anymore.
               And yes, most importantly, I do miss my waist now. I used to be in a good shape, gone are those days. Now the only thing I can do is to wish to get the same shape after 5 months! At the same time, can't negate - I do love my growing belly!! Particularly, the one inside my belly!!!